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Nightmares are scary, no?

Wikipedia on nightmares: A nightmare is a dream which causes a strong unpleasant emotional response from the sleeper, typically fear or horror, being in situations of extreme danger, or the sensations of pain, falling, drowning or death. Such dreams can be related to psychological ones such as psychological trauma or stress in the sleeper's life, or can have no apparent cause. If a person has experienced a psychologically traumatic situation in life—for example, a person who may have been captured and tortured—the experience may come back to haunt them in their nightmares. Sleepers may waken in a state of distress and be unable to get back to sleep for some time.

Nightmares are one of the scariest thing that i am afraid of, it has been quite awhile since i have got nightmares, which means that during the period of time, where nightmares are not there, there ain't any experiencing on a psychologically traumatic situation.

And the period of time, where i started to have nightmares recently, basically means that, there is no sense of security, there is lack of something in my life, psycologically, someone isn't with my for the past few days, resulting me to have such mares. And i am really, afraid of nightmares now, facing nightmare is a terror to me every single day. Without fail, every single night, before i sleep, i will hope that there won't be nightmares during the sleep, hoping that you are safe over there, hoping you to come back soon, hoping that times flies during this period of 8 days.

Nightmares can enter your sleep even if you were to sleep for half an hour, it is really scary, this is damn scary, imagine, even half an hour of nap, can be disturbed by the nightmares, scary isnt it? What about nightmares that last for hours, full 6-8 hours of sleep, even when there are intervals where i woke up by the nightmares. Every different intervals, when i went back to sleep, there will be different nightmares entering the gate of dreams.

Finally, you are coming back today.
to be honest, during the 8 days of waiting
the first 4 days will be the toughest of all
cause there isn't anyone, to talk to,
i wouldn't dare to share with my parents, families
on how much i miss you.
and all i could do was to hide in a room.
having my mind full of you,
i have been calling for you.
worried for you.
and i guess that is my love for you.
how have you been?
have you been enjoying?
eating well?
sleeping well?
did you take care of yourself well?
did you smile everyday?
like what you asked me to do before you went off?
suddenly, the absence of you made me hard to adapt.
totally, i am in no mood to do anything.
i have been asking myself to busy with things.
so as not to miss you as much
but i couldnt.
i have been sleeping late at night.
2am, 3am, 4am, woke up at 7 for sch days
8,9 and 10 during my holidays.
i couldnt sleep well,
i couldnt rest well,
i have really been worrying for you.
China is not really a safe place.
is it cold over there?
and now you are coming back,
i have been prayying hard,
that the plane you are on is safe.
and also hope that you will contact me
the moment you touched down,
cause this basically means that you didnt forget me
i will be too happy to talk toyou,
cause it has been really long,
since i talked to you.
the 8 days are a real torture, i swear.
hopefully, you didnt forget me at all.
i have been looking at my handphone this 8 days
hoping that you will call,
message, i really hope to see that during the 8 days
my phone has been real quiet,
normally, it takes me to charge every 2 days,
but in this 8 days, i have only charge my phone for twice,
my friends in sch,
who have been noticing that my phone is usually busy.
recently, has become so quiet,
they even asked, is there anything that happened,
why is your phone so quiet,
i wouldnt want to tell them the answer,
i kept quiet, cause i am afraid,
once i am reminded of ur name, i will cry,
i really will, i am emotional, i agree.

now i pray for your safety.
please be back soon,
safely. i miss you.